Highs -n-Lows Living with the Disease

Friday, May 24th

I woke up to a beautiful day...sun shining and cooler temps. Love this weather :-)

I had my doctor appointment yesterday. It went really well...she is starting me on some new medicine to help with my symptoms but before I can start the meds I have to come off another. I will start my tapering today.

I have been thinking...
I know everyone has a time when they must learn to lean on someone else for support. It is hard for me to do that...I've always been the one others have leaned on...

Someone suggested to me that perhaps the Lord was asking me to learn to accept help instead of provide it. That maybe he wanted me to help someone who was not used to providing help and comfort the oppourtunity to do so for me. I am not what I can do for others. I am not only worthy of being helpful. I am worthy of being on the recieving end of the blessings that others can give to me. My faith is not weak because my body is. My capacity for love and compassion is increased by my suffering. I know that is true.   I cannot be truly compassionate to anothers suffering unless I can understand what they are going through. I hope that it is understood that even though my body is weak, that my faith is not. It is not a sign of lack of Faith to question God, it is a sign that I believe in Him. I continue to ask myself what I am supposed to be learning from this.

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Selfish Christianity

Read | John 6:22-27

Think honestly about this question: Which interests you more who Jesus is or what He can do for you? I'm afraid that too many of us are more concerned about what the Lord can give us than we are about getting to know who He is.

But this is nothing new Jesus had the same problem when He walked on earth. The crowds often sought Him out for what He could do for them. Even though their needs were quite often legitimate, Christ knew their motives.

There is a fine line between selfishly trying to use the Lord to get what we want and humbly coming to Him with our needs and struggles. Some of the issues we bring to Him are so pressing and urgent in our minds that our desire for Him to take action in the way we want becomes greater than our willingness to submit to His will. At times, what we call is really a demanding spirit.

We must remember that our earthly needs will come to an end, but Jesus Christ will remain forever. If our prayers have dealt only with presenting our requests to the Lord, then we are missing a great opportunity to get to know the One with whom we are going to spend all eternity. Lets invest time in pursuing intimacy with the great God who created us. Then we can enjoy all the benefits of that relationship forever.

How much of your communion with God is devoted to your needs even legitimate ones? Are you spending any time getting to know the Lord? Although God delights in our prayers and tells us to pray about everything, He also wants us to come to Him just because we enjoy being with Him.

Another great day!