Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Wednesday, July 31st

Another beautiful morning!  Today is Paul's birthday. :-) tonight we are meeting my sister, Brenda and her husband, Curt to go out to eat.

Yesterday, we took Asa, Paul's youngest, out for lunch for his birthday :-) He is the same age as my oldest son, Erik. They both are 32 years old...

Yesterday afternoon we cleaned up the duplex in Plainview and handed the keys over to the landlord.  We rented the apartment to move Grandma Gloria closer, to make it easier for us to care for her.  After a few years we moved both grandma Faye and grandma Gloria over to a memory care facility in Faribault.  Kris and my nephew, Chad, have been living at the duplex since her move.  When we were done cleaning, I thought about how fast our lives are moving and how quickly things can change.  :-). A lesson we all have to accept.

I continue to sort and clean at home.  I'm hoping to get everything done by Thursday, the things I already have here anyway.The sorting and cleaning is a huge task. :-) I thought I had all of the things cleaned out from the Owatonna duplex but I continue to find more to sort through.  I will finish the sorting around our house first before adding more of grandmas into the mix. :-)

I've been having some chronic back issues and swelling still.Sometimes just standing will cause my back to hurt.  I've been taking alot of breaks as I work but I suppose I am probably pushing myself more than I should be.  I have open sores on my right hand I'll have to watch also.
The Prednisone and the other medication is keeping everything somewhat under control...I'm so thankful for that...

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Today's Bible Study

Living by Grace

Read | Romans 5:1-11

Grace is God’s goodness and kindness to those who do not deserve it and cannot earn it. Its benefits are available to everyone.

Each day God causes hearts to beat, bodies to heal, and love to be given and received, regardless of peoples’ opinions of Him. He offers forgiveness to the rebellious, freedom to sinners, and personal fellowship with Himself. All who trust Christ as Savior have access to the throne of grace, where the Savior serves as high priest, interceding for His own (Heb. 4:16; 7:25). We know we can approach God confidently because there is no condemnation for those who belong to Him (Rom. 8:1). What amazing grace!

It wasn’t always so. Israel—God’s chosen people—lived under the Law, not grace. Because they, like us, were a disobedient people, God in His mercy established the sacrificial system to temporarily provide a symbolic way for them to be forgiven of wrongdoing.

Jesus, however, gives us permanent forgiveness because His death was a one-time payment-in-full for all sins ever committed—even future ones (7:27). No mere human could obey every aspect of all 613 divine commandments handed down through Moses. But Christ fulfilled the Law for us, and grace makes it count on our behalf. Our Savior sacrificed His life for us, and as a result, we can approach God’s throne directly.

God’s grace is over us like a canopy and around us like a protective wall. Let the truth of it permeate your heart and mind, so you can become an expression of His love, kindness, and goodness to others.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Tuesday, July 30th

Another beautiful morning...raining and 60's.

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Today's Bible Study

A God of Grace

Read | John 1:14-18

Imagine receiving a big beautifully wrapped gift when there’s no particular occasion—the sender simply chose to do this for you. Inside the package is something very special. Eagerly, you read the card to discover who could have been so generous. To your amazement, you learn that the giver is someone you have been avoiding—and to whom you have been unkind! What do you do?

This scenario is a picture of the Father’s grace in sending His Son Jesus to earth for us. There was no special occasion; God simply had the desire to do it. The present arrived, despite the fact that we were either passively ignoring the Lord or actively rebelling against Him. This is grace—God’s goodness and kindness extended to those who do not deserve it and have no possible way to earn it.

In the Son, we see the fullness of God’s kindness revealed. Jesus fully met all the requirements of divine law by living a perfect life on earth; because of His sinless life as a man, He was qualified to pay the price for our rebellious ways. He did this by sacrificing His life on the cross to pay for all our sins—past, present, and future. So, when we receive Him as our Savior, God counts Jesus’ death as payment for all we have done wrong. What’s more, upon our salvation, Christ’s perfect life is counted as our own; His righteousness becomes ours through faith (Rom. 4:5).

What will you do with God’s gift of grace—refuse it, or say “thank You” and make an effort to get to know Him? And if you already do know Christ, have you been taking Him for granted?

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Monday,  July 29th

Another sunny morning with our highs in the 70's...

We had a busy weekend.  Getting a lot done but we have a lot to do.
I noticed bruises on my hands this morning.  I'm not sure how I got them...don't remember hitting them on anything.  I plan to continue to sort and clean today.   :-).  Hopefully finish up today.
The boys are moving to Rochester today so if they need help we will help them. 

I am planning to run to Owatonna to pick up our last couple of loads on Wednesday or Thursday of this week.

I have learned to refuse or rebuke the negativity in my life.  I move forward with thanksgiving. Amen

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Today's Bible Study

When a Fellow Christian Stumbles

Read | Galatians 6:1

Believers sometimes make wrong choices that result in their stumbling on the path of faith. According to the apostle Paul, our responsibility is to help fallen brothers and sisters to get back on their feet. Here are six areas where you can assist.

1. Try and help the believer to be able to recognize his failure as sin.

2. Does he accept responsibility for his sin? It is easy to blame one’s own transgression on the influence of someone else, but each person is ultimately responsible for his own behavior choices.

3. Encourage the Christian to confess and repent. True repentance is marked by a change of mind that results in a change of behavior.

4. Restitution may need to be made. For instance, if something was stolen, it must be paid back, or, if someone’s been harmed emotionally or spiritually, forgiveness should be sought. Circumstances may warrant advice from a pastor.

5. Help him to determine what lesson God may be trying to teach. We often overlook the fact that the Lord wants to communicate with us in our hard time.

6. Counsel the believer to respond to God’s chastisement with gratitude. This is a difficult step for anyone, but through discipline, we can always learn more about our heavenly Father.

Our responsibility as brothers and sisters is not condemnation, but restoration with gentleness. We must be sensitive to fellow believers’ hurts and needs. And then, if we ourselves should ever stumble, we can expect similar treatment in the same loving spirit.

Another beautiful day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Saturday, July 27th

Another beautiful morning. We had a great night sleep with our windows open. :-) Temperatures were in the 50's overnight. Real nice...

This morning I still have drainage from my eyes, swelling and pain.  This morning I saw an infomercial advertising the Nepola drink...wondering if anyone tried this drink for inflammation?  I asked my doctor about using it before and she didn't want me to add anything new until we figured out what was working and what wasn't with the medication I was already using.

I am hoping to get something done this weekend, planning to continue to sort and clean. :-). Not only here at home but I have a load or two from Owatonna to pick up yet. :-(

Kris, Chad and Asa are moving on Monday to a 3 bedroom apartment in Rochester. 
Monday is also Asa's birthday. 

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Today's Bible Study

Raising Secure Children

Read | Ephesians 6:1-4

We too easily forget how powerful aparent’s influence can be on a child. In certain situations, a simple, offhand comment from a distracted mom or dad may be all it takes to plant a seed of insecurity. Then, unless wisdom is sensitively applied, a lack of confidence can develop. Let’s consider ways parents inadvertently foster insecurity in their kids.

First, a home atmosphere marked by chaos and volatility keeps children off balance, on guard, and nervous. As adults, they may feel rejected or unloved and could be prone to see themselves as unworthy of acceptance and affection.

Second, negative comments about a child’s performance or character strike at the heart of his or her personhood and significantly affect personal development.

Third, unrealistic expectations can create the feeling of conditional love. If a child believes his parents will love him only if he lives up to their expectations—whether in academics, athletics, or some other area—he will grow up under the weight of a terrible burden.

Fourth, lack of positive reinforcement can be crippling. Imagine if you did your absolute best whenever you tried something but never heard the slightest word of encouragement? Over time, this kind of deprivation can strip one of confidence in his or her abilities.

The job of raising kids certainly isn’t without challenges. But even when you face frustrations—family-related or not—be mindful that words and actions influence boys and girls powerfully. Whatever their ages, choose to instill a spirit of confidence in your children.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Friday, July 26th

Another beautiful morning...

Today, Kaylee and I are going to  Faribault to visit Grandma Faye and Grandma Gloria. :-)

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Yesterday, I was planning on getting a lot of work done sorting but wasn't able to do much...I was swollen, very sore and my back was weak and hurt.  Just wasn't feeling well at all :-( I had sores in my mouth but this morning it feels like these are going away :-)

There are times in my life when I'm not feeling good or I'm in a lot of pain, at these times, I become frustrated and begin to feel sorry for myself.  Wishing I could turn back the hands of time...to a time before my diagnosis.

Many of us find ourselves at a point in our lives asking for a sign.I know I have been at that point, several times.  I wanted a sign to let me know that I will make it through this trying situation, that everything will be alright; a sign to put my troubled heart and mind at ease.

When challenges arise, I see them as stepping stones to a greater awareness of my soul's journey and the power of God within.  I may not know how circumstances will unfold, but I continue to trust God, wherever He takes me :-)

Let Christ within you change you and set you free.  Accept the peace only God can offer.

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Today's Bible Study

A Heart of True Praise

Read | John 12:1-8

We could conclude from the last few chapters of Psalms that all praise is noisy and boisterous. But worship can be expressed in quiet ways too. Few people think of today’s passage as a description of praise, but the depth of Mary’s love for the Savior required an expression beyond mere words.

Desiring to give Jesus something of value, Mary broke a bottle of perfume worth a year’s wages (it was costly because the herb used to make the fragrance had to be transported through mountain passes from where it grew, around present-day India and Tibet). By breaking it, she held nothing in reserve and allowed the excess to fall onto the ground. The expense, the surprised stares of onlookers, and Judas’ snide remark meant nothing to her, compared with the value of having a Savior.

The whole house filled with the scent of Mary’s adoration. True praise permeates the atmosphere around us as well: we can sense when others are worshipping God, because our own soul is uplifted. Spending time with people who are surrendered to the Lord—who are praising Him through actions and service—lets us partake of their joy. Worshipping Him ourselves provides us with a full measure.

Believers express praise in numerous creative ways—singing, painting, taking a nature walk, or cleaning an elderly friend’s home. When we want to convey our devotion beyond mere words, we are not limited with regard to the manner of expression. The Father is pleased to accept genuine praise of all kinds.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Friday, July 26th

Another beautiful morning...again the rain missed us.  :-(

Today, Kaylee and I are going to  Faribault to visit Grandma Faye and Grandma Gloria. :-)

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Yesterday, I was planning on getting a lot of work done sorting but wasn't able to do much...I was swollen, very sore and my back was weak and hurt.  Just wasn't feeling well at all :-( I had sores in my mouth but this morning it feels like these are going away :-)

There are times in my life when I'm not feeling good or I'm in a lot of pain...at that time I become frustrated and begin to feel sorry for myself.  Wishing I could turn back the hands of time...to a time before my diagnosis.

Many of us find ourselves at a point in our lives asking for a sign.I know I have been at that point, several times...I wanted a sign to let me know that I will make it through this trying situation, that everything will be alright; a sign to put my troubled heart and mind at ease.

When challenges arise, I see them as stepping stones to a greater awareness of my soul's journey and the power of God within.  I may not know how circumstances will unfold, but I continue to trust God, wherever He takes me :-)

Let Christ within you change you and set you free.  Accept the peace only God can offer.

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Today's Bible Study

A Heart of True Praise

Read | John 12:1-8

We could conclude from the last few chapters of Psalms that all praise is noisy and boisterous. But worship can be expressed in quiet ways too. Few people think of today’s passage as a description of praise, but the depth of Mary’s love for the Savior required an expression beyond mere words.

Desiring to give Jesus something of value, Mary broke a bottle of perfume worth a year’s wages (it was costly because the herb used to make the fragrance had to be transported through mountain passes from where it grew, around present-day India and Tibet). By breaking it, she held nothing in reserve and allowed the excess to fall onto the ground. The expense, the surprised stares of onlookers, and Judas’ snide remark meant nothing to her, compared with the value of having a Savior.

The whole house filled with the scent of Mary’s adoration. True praise permeates the atmosphere around us as well: we can sense when others are worshipping God, because our own soul is uplifted. Spending time with people who are surrendered to the Lord—who are praising Him through actions and service—lets us partake of their joy. Worshipping Him ourselves provides us with a full measure.

Believers express praise in numerous creative ways—singing, painting, taking a nature walk, or cleaning an elderly friend’s home. When we want to convey our devotion beyond mere words, we are not limited with regard to the manner of expression. The Father is pleased to accept genuine praise of all kinds.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Thursday, July 25th

Another beautiful morning...showers passing through with highs in the 80's.  Strong storms are suppose to hit after lunch.

With Paul's birthday coming next week...it reminds me of my onset of shingles.
It's been almost a year since I had been diagnosed with shingles.  I was diagnosed on July 31st of last year.  I was diagnosed quickly and put on the anti-viral medication and pain meds. My shingles were so bad it jumped nerves several times.  Very very painful.  I have been suffering terribly from the nerve pain left behind after the shingles. I continue to have neuropathy and bursitis. 

This morning I woke up with sores in my mouth and eye drainage. :-(
I will work hard to get rid of the sores in my mouth so I don't have to call my doctor.  So far I've been pretty lucky getting rid of the sores by myself. :-)

Today my prayers go out for my sister-in-law, Connie, she is going in for surgery this morning.  She is having trouble keeping any food or fluids down.  Sounds like she has complete blockage.
My cousin, Jon, who was diagnosed with throat cancer.  He is starting chemotherapy...5 days on 2 off and repeat...

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Today's Bible Study

What It Means to Fear God

Read | Psalm 112:1-9

As we saw yesterday, the fear of the Lord has nothing to do with terror or trepidation, but rather refers to the appropriate awe and reverence for who God is. It is a quality that we as believers should seek and nurture. Though the expression isn’t heard very often today, it should still be received as a great compliment to be known as a God-fearing man or woman.

Proper fear of the Lord produces all manner of fruit in the Christian’s life. It leads to our hating evil as God does, and it is also the beginning of wisdom (Ps. 111:10) The more we acquire divine understanding, the greater will be our love for the Scriptures and the Lord’s commandments. Furthermore, if we hope to have a strong family with children who grow to be courageous for the truth, it is important that we properly reverence the Lord (Ps. 112:2).

God-fearing people also find that “light arises in the darkness for the upright.” (v. 4) This does not mean that we will never have painful situations or periods of distress in the valley—we will still have trials, headaches, and tears like the rest of mankind. But in our hardships, we are promised the light of deliverance.

The Bible says that “the angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear Him, and rescues them” (Ps. 34:7). We who believe will be surrounded on all sides so that nothing can get at us without divine permission. Ask God to help you have a proper, reverential fear of Him. It is a request that He will be pleased to honor.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Wednesday, July 24th

Another beautiful morning. 
Today highs will be around 80's :-)

Kaylee stayed with us again last night.  Her daycare is on vacation. Kaylee is such a happy girl and easy to take care of.  If I do have problems...Paul is here to help :-)
It's easiest for me to have her over night so I don't have to rush in to town.  I can get up and do my normal routine, take my meds and wait for them to kick in.  Have my coffee and a bite to eat.
I never know how I will wake up.
This morning I have the shooting pains on my right side and a discharge from my eyes. :-(

Erik and Christine came out last night to see Kaylee and to take the dogs for a run. 

Today I will continue to clean and sort...didn't realize how much work it was going to be. :-) It needs to get done and when I do clean I can take as many breaks as I need to. :-)

Today I'm taking a short break from sorting and cleaning to run to Winona to pick up my medicine and a few groceries. 

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Today's Bible Study

The Fear of the Lord

Read | Proverbs 8:13

People are frequently confused by talk that has to do with fearing God. Scripture admonishes us to fear the Lord (2 Tim. 1:7), but at the same time, we are told that God has not given us a spirit of fear. So how are we to understand this phrase?

Fearing God does not mean always looking over your shoulder in anxiety to see what He will do next. The fear of the Lord is something positive and healthy that is clearly defined in several different scriptures. A particularly helpful one is today’s verse, where we are told, “The fear of the Lord is to hate evil.”

Many people are bothered by the thought of hating anything. Yet God says we are to hate evil because He Himself hates it in all of its forms for a simple reason—namely, the Lord sees the corrupting, destructive influence that wickedness has on us. We often fail to see any corruption at all. In fact, we sometimes look at evil and think that it’s not really too bad.

Satan’s job is to camouflage iniquity until it appears quite innocent or even attractive. In fact, the Enemy is so successful in his deception that we often fall into his snares without any compunction. That is why we must learn to view things as the Lord sees them. We need to develop such a holy hatred for evil that we shun and refuse it at every turn. When we get the Lord’s view of transgression, the Devil will be stymied in his efforts to seduce us. Although it may not be a popular stance, we can choose to love the Lord and to hate evil.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Tuesday, July 23rd

Another beautiful morning.  The thunderstorms we were expecting yesterday afternoon passed by us to the  southeast...
Today it's going to be much cooler with highs only in the 70's :-)

Cleaning and sorting has been tough on my body expecally my back :-( I have to stop and rest a lot.  Paul has been very helpful. :-)  I still have so much to go through yet.  We filled our first dumpster and now we are working at filling the second one.

My right side is still very sensitive.It hurts when I take a shower and the water touches it, when I sit on the toilet and my shirt rubs against it, if anyone touches it in passing or if I sit the wrong way... :-(  My dad had shingles before he died.  He was one that never complained...So you never knew anything was wrong.  I miss him...

Kaylee stayed over last night.  Her daycare provider is on vacation this week. She has been helping sort things also.  She found some toys in my dads shed.  :-)

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Today's Bible Study

What We Can Learn from Jonah

Read | Psalm 139:1-10

In the light of God’s omniscience and omnipresence, it is easy to wonder why Christians still attempt to run from Him. Jonah certainly demonstrated that it could not be done, and yet people insist on trying. But why?

Sometimes people who try to run from God are acting out of pure selfishness—it seems we have an unlimited capacity to believe we know what is best for us, no matter what God thinks or says. At times we balk out of simple fear: we are afraid that we might not succeed; we are concerned that others will be critical of our efforts; or perhaps we fear obedience might be too costly. But no matter what our reason is, we often fail to recognize the high price of turning aside and trying to flee from the Lord.

Jonah paid dearly for his rebellion. Not only did he suffer embarrassment, terror, and guilt, but he also jeopardized the lives of innocent men. You cannot run from the Lord without inflicting heavy punishment on innocent people. How many fathers and mothers walk away from their children and say, “I can do what I want. It’s my own life.” No, it is not. You cannot leave little children fatherless or motherless without reaping lifelong pain and suffering. Nor can you sin against the Lord without paying a terrible price yourself and hurting others in the process.

In spite of this awful reality, it is also true that God is forgiving—He offers a second or third or fortieth or millionth chance (Jonah 3:1) He kept after Jonah as long as it was necessary, and He will be faithful to you as well.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Monday, July 22nd

Another beautiful morning! We had almost 1/4 of an inch of rain...we can use more.
From noon to 7pm we will be in a severe thunderstorm warning.

I am continuing to stay out of the sunlight and watch what I eat.
I messed up. I put catchup on my hashbrowns for breakfast after church yesterday. Whoops...Tomatoes and potatoes are nightshade plants and cause swelling. The ketchup has salt which also causes swelling :-(

Sometimes I don't think about it...things are automatic.  For 18 years Paul and I have gone to church, parked in the same place, sat in the same pew and would go to Finne for breakfast.  When we walk in they start our breakfast...we have the same thing ever Sunday. :-)
I order 2 egg, hashbrowns, bacon, toast and coffee for 18 years. I need to change my order to something different so I won't swell.

Yesterday I decided to go to church without my gloves...today my knuckles have the patchy red on them. :-(
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One of the sheds I am going through was one my dad had built to put his things in while he was here from AZ.  He would set up at swap meets, antique or coin shows. Dad has been gone for several years. Time to clean the shed out.

I haven't told many about the dream I had before my dad died.
My dad came to me in a dream telling me that he was going to take Pauls place so I wouldn't have to lose another husband. I promised dad I would always take care of mom and thanked him for that gift.  Dad died at age 70 of Acute Myloid Leukemia. Around 12 days after he was diagnosed.

So many of us rush through life...slow down so you are able to hear from God...He teaches us so many things, if we would listen.

When trials come into our life, whether it be a lose of a job, financial, martial, death or sickness, at these times in our life is when God graduates us to a new level in our faith. 
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Today's Bible Study

Lessons from a Man on the Run

Read | Jonah 1:1-17

We are told that the prophet Jonah bought a ticket to Tarshish in an effort to escape from the presence of the Lord and thereby avoid a God-given assignment. Probably none of us would book a flight to a distant land in order to escape from God’s presence.

Nonetheless, good people actually try to run from God in many different ways and end up experiencing miseries similar to Jonah’s.

While running from the Lord, the prophet overlooked some essentials that we should all keep in mind. In the first place, he incorrectly assumed that fleeing from God would release him from having to obey. He probably never imagined how persistent the Lord can be when He calls us to a duty station. Eventually Jonah found it is impossible to run from God successfully—His love will pursue us, even to the depths of the sea in order to conform us to His will and His plan for our lives. God simply will not be deterred by our slippery disobedience.

Jonah had also overlooked the fact that the direction of disobedience is always downward. Scripture tells us that the reluctant prophet initially went down to Joppa. There he found a ship and proceeded down into it. And the next thing you know, he is plunging down into the depths of the sea—even down to the roots of the mountains (Jonah 2:6).

When you run from God, there is no hiding place, even in the bottom of the sea. Our entire life is always visible to the Lord. So instead of trying to flee from His presence, welcome it.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Sunday, July 21st

Another beautiful morning!  We had rain during the night...much needed rain.  We will have chances for rain all day.  ,:-)

I've been staying out of the sun and watching what I eat...my swelling has been less. :-) I woke up this morning with some swelling and pain again on my right side. 

While I was going through some boxes, I came across some old letters I sent to Erik and he sent me when he was in the Marine Corps boot camp.  Erik saved them :-) The letters brought back a lot of memories when both Erik and Kris were in the Marine Corps...back in 2000 and 2001.

When Erik was getting ready to be deployed to Kosovo for mine training. He was doing night training and sleeping during the day.  On the ship his commanding officer told him to go down to see the medic. Eriks blood sugar was around 980. They docked the ship in Spain to put him in the hospital. Erik was medivaced from Spain to Germany from Germany to the state's when he stabilized. :-(
When I got the initial phone call the message was mom I'm in the hospital in Spain I will call you later. What ???? :-(   If you know anything about the Corp you know you need to go through the Red Cross to get in touch with anyone or get any information...Erik was medically distcharged.  He was so disappointed he had to leave his friends on the ship...
When Kris was going through boot camp he ended up getting hurt while doing the daily exercises.  The drill sergeant didn't believe he was hurt so he made him continue to run. Finally they sent him in to the medic and found out his tibula was broken and his fibula was bowed. He ended up on bed rest for 3 1/2 to 4 months.  He wasn't able to finish his training with his unit. That was very disappointing for him...he finished boot camp and stayed in the Corp for 7 years.

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Paul and I are cleaning out the house, sheds and barn.  We are finding some hidden treasures and a lot of junk.  The dumpster is getting full fast and we just started. The dumpster can hold 8000 pounds.  We may need to have it dumped and returned. :-)

Off to church and breakfast :-)

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Today's Bible Study

Trusting God to Keep His Promise

Hebrews 10:35-36

Have you ever experienced the bitter sting of a broken promise from a close friend? Few things hurt worse than this kind of betrayal, most likely because it marks the faltering trust between two companions.

For this reason, it is of eternal value to recognize the trustworthiness of almighty God. We serve a God of promises. He pledged a new land for His people, a child to the elderly Abraham, and a Savior for the world. Each of these and many more promises were fulfilled in time, according to His perfect will. Hebrews 10:23 affirms, “He who promised is faithful.”

Sometimes, however, God’s promises are marked with conditions. Although we serve a God of limitless grace and mercy, He often charges us with responsibilities upon which our success will depend. For instance, in today’s passage, we see that confidence, obedience, and endurance are all vital elements in “receiving what has been promised” (Heb. 10:35-36).

This does not mean that we can earn God’s favor with good deeds. In truth, He loves us not for what we do, but because He cannot help loving each of us passionately just as we are.

If we love Him in return, we must take responsibility for what He has called us to do. This is not a maneuver to finagle blessings from Him, but rather an act of humble submission to His will. When we operate from such a standpoint, we are in the perfect position to grab hold of what He wants to give us.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Saturday, July 20th

Another sunny morning with highs in the 70's and lower humidity. :-)

I had another day of swelling and pain.  Last night I was again very sore :-(  
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Yesterday grandma Gloria was having a pretty good day.  In a good mood.  She thought I was going to move her ??? Not sure where this idea came from.  She wanted me to take all her things out to my car. 
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Woke up with pain in my right leg and swelling.  It really gets old.  I am trying to continue to do the things I would if I didn't have DM or Lupus but I'm having a hard time keeping up. :-( They both have slowed me down a lot.

The garbage dumpster was dropped off before I went over to Faribault yesterday.  We will have the dumpster into Monday the 29th.  I am continuing to sort through the closests, the barn and the sheds.Tossing things we no longer need or can't use.  I may put some things aside for a garage sale or I will take them in to a second hand store.  Always so much to do.
I know I need to take it slow and not over do it or I will regret it. 
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Today's Bible Study

Humility Leads to Blessing

Read | Luke 14:7-11

The Lord promises to exalt believers who live humbly, but we often look at our circumstances—job situation, finances, or lack of material things—and question whether He’s coming through on this pledge. However, it’s important to view things from His perspective rather than the world’s. While God may choose to give us material blessings, such benefits are hardly comparable to the greater rewards He longs to bestow, like a deeper understanding of who He is, or prayers answered beyond all imagination.

Certain attitudes prevent our receiving the Father’s intended blessings:

Impatience. We want it now and are unwilling to trust that God is in control.
Insecurity. We feel that if certain things don’t happen, we simply cannot continue.
Identity in the wrong things. We feel good about ourselves only if we are a success by societal standards.
Ignorance of the Word. We decide for ourselves what is right.
Impure motives. Discontent or jealousy causes us to push ahead of God and use manipulation to get our way.
Impulsiveness. Without asking God, we assume every seeming opportunity is a door He has opened.
Ingratitude. Lack of thankfulness for what He’s given skews our perspective.
Notice these obstacles all start with “I”! Humility doesn’t come naturally. It requires deliberate, ongoing effort to remain in God’s presence so we can see how worthy He is of our total submission. Begin by “bowing” your heart before the Lord and surrendering everything. Then wait patiently for His promised blessing.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Friday, July 19th

Another beautiful morning...woke up to thunderstorms passing through.  It's a well needed rain...everything is so dry.  Highs will be 86 today :-)

Yesterday we had a long day...we made it back home from Iowa around 6pm. It was nice seeing everyone. Unfortunately the only times we see each other are at weddings or funerals.
My whole body was really swollen last night. My feet were the worst.  I did sleep really good last night.

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Today Kaylee and I are running over to Faribault to eat with and visit with grandmas. :-)

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Today, we are having a garbage dumpster delivered so we can clean-up everything and get rid of thing we don't want.  We may not get it all sorted but it will be a good start.   We will have it for a week.

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Today's Bible Study

Our Helper in Prayer

Read | Romans 8:26-27

As Jesus neared the time of His death, He frequently referred to the Helper He would be sending to His disciples—and ultimately to all believers. The Holy Spirit was promised to indwell, enable, and instruct followers of God. Often called the Comforter, or Parakletos in Greek, He is the one who comes to stand by us and assist in whatever the Lord calls us to do.

One of the Holy Spirit’s most significant responsibilities is to be our Helper in prayer. The burden we feel to pray comes from Him. He knows about temptations lurking ahead or harsh experiences that may befall us, so He prompts us to talk to our Father. When you sense a need to pray, the last thing you should do is ignore it. In 1 Thessalonians 5:19, we are told not to “quench the Spirit”; in other words, to ignore that divine prodding is actually a sin.

By burdening us to pray for someone else, the Holy Spirit frequently offers Christians the opportunity to participate in God’s work. On many occasions, I have received calls asking if I was going through a tough time. Invariably, my caller had been praying for me at the behest of the Holy Spirit.

This burdening of our hearts to pray for ourselves or for others is a special demonstration of God’s love. By calling us to prayer, He can begin the delicate work of sensitizing us to our surrounding circumstances or preparing us for a battle that He knows is coming. Listening to the prompting of the Holy Spirit and allowing ourselves to be prepared is how we display our love in return.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Thursday, July 18th

One more day before relief :-). The humidity is a problem. It is hot... Does weather affects the DM and Lupus in different ways???

Our plans had changed...we left at 5:45am to go down for the funeral :-(  it was tough...

After Kaylee went home yesterday I ran down to Winona to pick up my medication.  When walking through Walmart I decided to stop in to get my hair cut.  When I was visiting with the hair stylist, she said she thought I was crazy, wearing long sleeved shirts, pants and gloves :-( I am...I may have to make my own clothes with uv protection :-). Clothing that won't make me stand out... :-).

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Today's Bible Study

Overcoming Unforgiveness

Read | Matthew 6:9-15

Do you constantly struggle to forgive people who have wronged you? If so, you may be of the opinion that forgiveness is simply a feeling one can have in the face of conflict—and that you are incapable of experiencing it. If that’s your mindset, you are operating with a faulty understanding. Genuine forgiveness is not a feeling, but an action.

If you find it hard to forgive others, the following four guidelines can help:

1. Acknowledge and confess an unforgiving spirit. No, it is not always easy to forgive. We are sometimes the target of tremendously hurtful offenses. However, we are not accountable for other people’s behavior; we are responsible only for our own. God commanded us to be loving, forgiving people. If we hold a grudge, that is our problem and no one else’s—we must repent of this sin and ask God to help our unforgiveness.

2. Release the other person. Make a decision to release the offender in your mind. If you find yourself reliving details of the upsetting behavior, force yourself to stop.

3. Forgive the offender forgetfully. By keeping details fresh in your mind, you trap yourself in a cycle of pain. Choose instead to separate the individual from the painful memory.

4. Forgive with finality. Genuine forgiveness is complete. This means that you cannot “forgive” someone and then continually bring the subject up. Forgive him or her, and then move on.

If you’ve been holding onto bitterness, pray for the strength to forgive. Then do it—without delay.

Another great day!

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Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Wednesday, July 17th

Another sunny day with highs in the 90's.  The heat advisory is out again today. 

We picked up Kaylee and Kris before heading up to Cottage Grove to drop off the bed for Jerry and Marilyn yesterday. I couldn't believe the humidity. So HOT and uncomfortable :-(  I hope they slept good :-)

Very sore yesterday afternoon.  Paul thought the humidity could be playing a part in my problem also.  SO Painful.  My body was swollen and I had trouble swallowing.

This morning I again have drainage from my eyes and I'm sore.  Haven't had another episode of my hand locking up. So glad.  :-) I'm not sure why these symptoms come and go like this?

My plans for today is to run to get my hair cut.  Can't do anything with it.   :-)
Kaylee stayed last night and she is still sleeping....sleeping good :-)
I may wait until Christine gets off before running over for my hair.  Have been running a lot this week.

We are going down to Iowa for my aunt's funeral tomorrow morning.We are leaving home at 6:15am.  The funeral is at 10:30am in Humboldt.  It's a 2.5 hour drive one-way from Owatonna.  It's going to be a long day but it will be nice to see Dorothy's family.

On Friday we are babysitting Kaylee again and we are running over to see grandmas in Faribault.

I'll have to wait and see how I feel after a busy week.

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Today's Bible Study

The Struggle with Unforgiveness

Read | Ephesians 4:30-32

All of us have been hurt at one time or another, and the offender may well have been someone we love. We often attempt to get past the pain of such situations with comments like, “That’s okay” or “Don’t worry about it,” and yet we just can’t seem to shake that penetrating sting. Why aren’t we able to let it go?

One reason that we struggle with unforgiveness is a simple matter of pride. What prevents us from forgiving? “Because that person hurt me!” we cry. As a result of our offended pride, the injustice grows much greater than we should allow. It becomes an issue of personal insult rather than an honest mistake or a flash of insensitivity.

Another factor in our unforgiveness is bitterness. We become resentful when we refuse to deal honestly with hurt feelings and then permit the matter to fester in our heart. A growing sense of irritation spreads through our spirit like an infection. It has been rightly said that bitterness is like a poison that you prepare for someone else and then drink yourself. While it silently destroys our life, the person who hurt us may remain completely unaware of our dark feelings.

Sometimes our struggle involves a misunderstanding about forgiveness. Or, we might be sitting around waiting for an apology that may never come.

If you have been hurt recently, pray for guidance. At times it’s appropriate to approach the offender and say, “You did this and it hurt me. But I forgive you and refuse to let it destroy our relationship.”

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Tuesday, July 16th

Another beautiful morning. Sunny with highs in the 90's. There is heat advisory until Friday. :-(

When going through the airport security last night.  They wanted to pat me down.  I had to tell them I had shingles because they started patting the right side and it was very sensitive to the touch.  They stopped and then just wiped my hands to test for gun powder, I'm guessing.

Last night my plane arrived in the cities at around 9:45pm.  So by the time I drove home and got to bed it was 11:45pm.  I had a great trip.  It was something I really needed to get my mind and body back in sinc.  :-)

I slept in until 8am this morning.  I really needed the sleep.  My eyes are draining and my head itching.  So far I'm not having problems with my right leg.  I'm still resting on the couch having a cup of coffee. 

Today we are running my sister's sleep number bed up to Jerry and Marilyn and bringing back a bunk bed.  We thought we'd head up around 10/10:30am this morning.

Another busy day...

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Today's Bible Study

Jesus’ Sacrifice: Payment in Full

Read | Psalm 51

A church deacon once confessed a horrible sin in a social media site. After giving a description of what he’d done, the man commented, “I know there’s a price to pay for this sin now. And that price is death.”

Not only was his heart broken over what he had done; he also knew that the effect on his friends and family would be devastating. And yet, overshadowing his remorse was fear. He had become afraid of God, believing that the sovereign Lord of the universe was now “out to get him.”

What would you say to this believer? Does his statement reflect an appropriate view of God’s response to sin?

It’s true that Romans 6:23 clearly teaches that “the wages of sin is death”; however, this sorrowful young man had overlooked the all-important second half of the verse: “but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” If our Father gives us a gift, we can trust that He will never take it away; it becomes ours to keep—that’s what a gift is. We did nothing to deserve it, so we can do nothing to lose it. It all rests on God’s initiative.

Moreover, a greater theological principle is at work here. If the believer’s sin after salvation could require death—or any form of punishment—then Jesus’ sacrifice was insufficient. However, the Bible tells us that Jesus’ death was wholly sufficient and a once-for-all payment of mankind’s sin debt (Heb. 10:10).

Either Jesus’ blood does cover our sins, or it doesn’t. There’s no middle ground. The Holy Spirit, Christ’s words, and biblical testimony clearly assert that it does.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Monday, July 15th

Another beautiful morning with highs again in the 90's. 

Trying to function with my swelling and pain.  I was out more than I normally am yesterday.  I enjoyed being out but now I will pay the consequences, swelling and itchy scalp.  I am having the bloody discharge again.  This is about the fourth time I've had it. Not really sure what going on.  I had a partial hysterectomy several years back.  I first I thought it may be hemroids but I really don't think it's that anymore.  It is a vaginal bloody discharge.  I go to see my primary care physician on Friday so I will mention it to her.   See if we can figure that out or send me to someone who can :-). I really don't need anything else added to my plate right now.  It's hard enough as it is...

I fly back home this evening.  I will miss Laurie and Bill...we had a great time.  It will be good to get back in my daily routine.  That sounds funny...I really don't have much of a daily routine. :-)

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Today's Bible Study

Sinning After Salvation

Read | 1 John 2:1-2

How many times have you sinned since you received Jesus as your personal Savior? This is an impossible question to answer. The harsh reality is that every single person sins—yes, including Christians.

All transgression, before or after salvation, stems from the desire to have our needs met apart from God. Whenever we take matters into our own hands and operate outside of His will, we are headed down a sad, sinful road.

Faith in Christ brings many things—a new relationship with God, a new spirit, a new outlook on life—but it doesn’t eradicate all traces of our old life. We still have the same body and the same mind, which can lead to some of the same difficulties.

Why do we still sin after salvation? It is because old “programming” directs our thinking in certain patterns, which leads us into trouble. War has been declared in our lives, as our “flesh” struggles against the new life brought about by Christ. If we do not make a commitment to retrain our minds, we can expect a lifetime of trouble.

Scripture offers the remedy for this ongoing conflict: “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind” (Rom. 12:2). That is to say, we must intentionally fill our minds with the things of God, allowing Him to realign our thoughts.

Where are your thoughts taking you today? Are you grounding your thinking in Scripture, or does your thinking simply lead you aimlessly through life? That way leads to sin. Begin now to focus your mind on the Lord. 

Another great day!

High -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Sunday, July 14th

Another beautiful day!  Sunny and highs in the 90's.
Been trying to keep going with my swelling and pain. Laurie and I went to church and I decided to go forward for prayer.  I really needed prayers for my strength through this.  I'm struggling with not being able to do things like I used too. Expecally when it is so nice out.  I don't enjoy having to be completely covered...I sweat.  It's so hard not being able to enjoy the outdoors.  I continue to swell and itch.  Wish I could be normal again. :-(

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Today's Bible Study

Psalm 27:14

“Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!”

All of us know that we often have to wait on God to do some things that we have asked Him to do.  We wait because He uses the His time to do what He will do.  We often wait on Him so that He can use what we want to help some one else.  After all, God looks out for all of us.  For that reason, He may give us something a long time after he ask for it.  Then someone else will also be blessed by Him.  God takes what we want and applies it to His will, as long as what we want lines up with His Word.

This verse tells us to be of good courage while we wait on the Lord.  When we determine to do that, He promises us that He will strengthen our hearts.  In other words, we start the process by resolving to be courageous, and He then takes over by giving us the strength to do that.  The waiting that we do will then go so much better and will seem to go faster.

Thank God that we do wait on Him at times.  He's working everything together in this world in the best way for all of us.  He loves us so much.  He deserves all of our love and obedience!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Saturday, July 13th

We had severe thunderstorms passing through this morning.

I left home at 7:30am to drive up to the Cities. It was tough going without letting the medication kick in...wasn't sure how I would do.  While sitting in the airport waiting to catch my flight to St. Louis, my hands and feet were swelling and tingling.  My right hand is locking up this evening, not sure why???

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I've been continuing to sort and clean but sadly, I am failing miserably in my attempts to keep everything that way.  It is a never-ending struggle.  :-(  Hopefully I can get things sorted soon.  The kids and grandkids will be coming August 1st.

Another great day!
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“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”
― Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Friday, July 12th

Another beautiful morning! The birds seem to be enjoying it also, alot of chirping going on outside.   :-)

I've been living with DM for almost fourteen months now, some days are better than others.  I really appreciate the many doctors that came to my rescue.  I truly feel much better than I did when I first started.  I continue to have trouble on a daily basis with swelling and pain but I am moving in the right direction.  I feel genuinely happy and content.  Life is good, truly and honesty, it is good.

Yesterday, we found out we are having another granddaughter, Erik and Christine are having a baby girl in December...so exciting.  Our kids and grandkids are the highlight in my life. :-)

This afternoon my sister, Brenda and her husband, Curt are coming over.   We are planning on going out to each and just visiting...we enjoy their company :-)

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Today's Bible Study

Loved but Lost

Read | John 3:15-17

Many people assume that since God is loving, He will make a place for everyone in heaven. They do not grasp the basic truths about “lost” and “saved”:

1. All people start life as “lost” beings. Since he was the first man, Adam served as representative of the human race. When he sinned against God (Gen. 3), his spirit became one of rebellion and sinfulness (Rom. 5:12). That “sin nature,” which is passed along to each generation, results in our being “lost.” Neither our deeds nor the fact of God’s love are the determining factors.

2. Mankind is dead in trespasses and sins (Eph. 2:1). When Adam sinned, his intimate relationship with God died. We, his descendants, are born into that state. Although we are physically alive at birth, our spirit—the only part of us that can relate to God—is dead.

3. We are eternal beings. Because we are made in God’s image, our souls are eternal. Yet Scripture tells us that those who reject Christ as Savior will perish. (John 3:16). This does not mean annihilation; rather, the “lost” will experience consciousness after physical death but will be separated eternally from God.

4. New birth is required (1 Peter 1:3). To have a relationship with our heavenly Father requires that the part of us that has been dead to God now be made alive. When we trust in Jesus, the very life of God is born in us, and we move from being spiritually dead and lost to being alive and saved.

Our heavenly Father, out of love for us, provided just what we needed—a Savior. Start spreading the truth!

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Thursday, July 11th

Another cool morning...again in the 60's.  Love waking up to these cool morning. :-)

I continue to have swelling in my hands, feet, and shooting pains down my leg this morning.  I've been trying to get the swelling, itching and the neuropathy undercontrol.  It hasn't happened yet.  :-(

We had Kaylee overnight last night.  She slept really well. Woke up at 6am this morning.

Her mom and dad are going to a Dr appointment this morning.  Christine will be picking Kaylee up around 12/1pm.  Erik will be going back to work.

Kris, my youngest son, is gettting ready to move to a three bedroom apartment in Rochester with Asa, Paul's youngest, and Chad, my nephew.  My brother, Ron has been bringing over boxes for the boys to pack with.  They are nice boxes with lids.

This afternoon the washing machine repair man is coming to repair the door of the machine.  One of the prongs that connects allowing washer to start broke. I can't wait...so many loads to wash. It's been on the blinks for almost a week.

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Today's Bible Study

The Number One Priority of Life

Read | Luke 10:38-42

While heading to Jerusalem, Jesus stopped in Bethany to spend some time with friends He loved—Lazarus and his two sisters. As Martha was rushing around preparing a meal, Mary sat listening to the Lord.

In those days, culture dictated that a woman served the men in the house. By resting at Jesus’ feet, Mary was defying her society’s conventions. But this was a woman who cared more for her Lord than for doing what was culturally appropriate. When Martha complained, Jesus gently explained that her sister was making the right choice. The number one priority was to spend time with Him.

What was true for Mary and Martha is true for us today. Every believer needs to carve out personal time with God. There are many Christians who think that they prove their love for the Lord by going to church, tithing their income, and sharing the gospel. All these things are important, but actions are empty unless we are connecting with God personally on a regular basis. Doing so demonstrates how much we value our relationship with Him, since the people we spend time with are those we love most.

Believers often rationalize by saying they are too busy. We tell ourselves, I just need to finish a few things, and then I’ll pray and read the Bible, but there always seems to be a new task to replace each completed one. We must choose to make time for the Lord.

Changing our schedule to give God His rightful place can be difficult. But no other relationship in life equals what we have with the Lord when we make Him our top priority.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Wednesday, July 10th

Another beautiful morning. Cooler with temps in the 60's this morning. :-) So Nice

Paul and I have been discussing the appointment I had on Monday...comparing notes.
My test results didn't show DM. Not sure what that means...I guess I wasn't asking the right questions.  :-(
If I truly don't have any form of DM that is a blessing but I do have something going on and it's affecting my skin terribly, caused my hands and feet to lock up, me to lose hair and fall. ???

What I think we got out of the appointment was I have a form of DM which will only affect my skin and it probably won't affect my muscle. GREAT NEWS!
The problem I have with my muscles is being caused by the steroid, Prednisone.
I question how much the steroids have affected the muscle versus the degree of loss muscle strength I am experiencing.

All clinical signs point to DM.  The falling, weakness, the shawl, patches of red on my knuckles, elbows and knees.The punch biopsy results came back DM, the Drs at Olmsted, Winona and Gunderson all said it was DM.

Is there a form of DM that doesn't affect the muscles, only the skin??  If there is, what is it called??

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This morning I am thinking and praying for one of our neighbors who lost their daughter to anorexia yesterday. 

Parents are suppose to leave this world before their child...so devastating.

Our kids have so many pressures in this world.  How can we teach them that they are loved without giving them too much. 
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Today's Bible Study

The Pathway of Peace

Read | Philippians 4:6-7

All of us have responsibilities—whether regarding work, family, community, or church—and we may rightly feel some concern about how to carry out these commitments. When our natural cares get out of balance, the result is anxiety.

Though Paul faced an inordinate number of trials (2 Cor. 11:23-28), he was able to say, “Be anxious for nothing.” He understood that anxiety reveals a lack of faith—it’s not possible to be worried while fully trusting God. Fretfulness also takes a toll by draining energy and dividing the mind. Besides that, disproportionate apprehension prevents effective service to the Lord by keeping one’s focus self-centered rather than God-centered.

To keep concerns in balance, we must present our requests to God (Phil. 4:6), who is ready, willing, and totally sufficient to handle every care we bring Him. We do this by . . .

• Prayer. The Greek word implies worship and appreciation for God’s attributes, not some panicky thought tossed His way.

• Supplication. Our cry of humility conveys total helplessness and dependence upon almighty God.

• Thanksgiving. We are to approach God without blame or complaint, but with gratefulness that He will ultimately use the difficulty for our good, as He has promised (Rom. 8:28).

Philippians 4:7 says that when we bring God our requests in this way, the result will be His wonderful, inexplicable peace. Realizing this, we should learn to go to Him first—not as a last resort.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Tuesday, July 9th

Another beautiful morning with chances of storms throughout the day.

I'm not sure if the DM diagnosis was confirmed yesterday at the U of M...Paul and I left the Drs office more confused than ever.
Currently I have no muscle changes seen in the biopsies...GREAT NEWS!
I do show muscle weakness but my Dr thinks the steroids are causing the weakness not the DM. He want me to eventually tapper the prednisone down to five mg.
After the tapper he thought I would get my strength back.

Before leaving the U I gave additional blood to check my CPK count.  I also scheduled another appointment in 4 months with Neurology.  I have a rheumatologist appointment scheduled on August 22nd at Gunderson. 

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Today mom and I will pick up Kaylee from daycare at 11:30 and head over to Faribault.  Moms ready to get back home and sleep in her own bed.

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Today's Bible Study

Standing on Our Principles

Read | Revelation 2:12-17

We all admire men and women of principle who are ready to pay a heavy price for what they believe. At the same time, we do well not to trust everyone who displays conviction. As we see all too often in the news, it is possible to have unsound beliefs that are not based on Scripture.

Even as Christians, we have to be careful, or we could easily mistake personal preferences for convictions. We cannot afford to build our life’s foundation with any materials that are not totally scriptural. The apostle Paul told us that the quality of each man’s work will be tested by fire (1 Cor. 3:13), and that includes what we believe.

Such a test came to a church in a little town called Pergamum in Asia Minor. It was a foul place—Jesus even said that Satan’s throne was there. Evil men were disseminating the teachings of Balaam and the Nicolaitans throughout the local church. A man named Antipas, however, felt strongly that this teaching was wrong and should be confronted. So he stepped forward to oppose it, at the cost of his life.

Yes, Antipas was killed, but listen to the tribute the Lord Himself gave: He referred to this saint as “My witness, My faithful one.” And He commended the church in Pergamum with these words: “You hold fast My name, and did not deny My faith even in the days of Antipas” (Rev. 2:13).

Thank God that the trial of our faith, even though tested by fire, will “result in praise and glory and honor at the revela- tion of Jesus Christ” (1 Peter 1:7).

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Monday, July 8th

Another beautiful morning.  We are looking at high 80's. Storms possible tonight...
We have an air quality advisory through today. 

TODAY IS THE DAY :-)
Paul and I are heading up to the U of M to get the results from all the tests I've had the last couple of months.  I'm ready to finally get the confirmation that I have Dermatomyositis or find out what it is I do have.  :-)

I slept like a log last night.  Paul made it up before I did this morning.  :-)

I'm looking forward to the new opportunities that are ahead of me...I know God will bring me out of this situation with much more than I started with.  I may not be able to do what I used to but I will still be able to do a lot. :-)

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I decided not to turn in my resume  for the job I saw in the newspaper. I need to focus on getting better...the disease isn't undercontrol yet.  It wouldn't be fair to put the employer or any of my coworkers in that position... 

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Today's Bible Study:

Our Convictions: Our Defense

Read | Genesis 39:1,4,6-9

The only way that you’re going to build a defense against untruth is to saturate your mind with truth. You must, therefore, spend time in the Bible, undergirding your belief system with God’s reality so you can easily spot error.

This is similar to the way a chef creates his own version of a well-known recipe. While adjusting ingredients, he conducts repeated taste tests; only by checking his creation against the original cuisine can he determine the accuracy of his recipe. Otherwise, it would be as futile as trying to produce Coquilles St. Jacques by comparing the flavors to a fast-food sandwich!

God’s Word is our standard. Look over your belief system. What do you believe about marriage? Is it for life? Or do you believe it’s okay to bail whenever it becomes inconvenient or cramps your style? And what about children? Friends? Finances? Morality? Church? What about those “hot button” social issues we hear so much about?

If you are unsure where to stand on any of these issues, then it is imperative that you sit down with a Bible and begin researching until you hear God’s answers. Find Scripture concerning each area, and ask the Holy Spirit, “What does this passage really mean?”

Do not simply ask, “How can I interpret this passage in a way to suit myself?” The world operates by that philosophy, which is known as moral relativism. Instead, ask the Lord to mold your convictions through His Word. It is amazing how the Holy Spirit will equip and embolden you to stand for what you believe.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Sunday, July 7th

Another beautiful morning...temps today again close to 90 and a chance of storms.

We are going to eat at Beth's restaurant in Nelson, WI for lunch to celebrate Kris 31st birthday. Where has the time gone??? :-)

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Well, my sister asked if I was nervous about my Dr appointment tomorrow with my neurologist.  I'm not...I'm at peace with whatever the results might be.  I may someday end up with a cane, walker or wheelchair.  I may also end up unable to get out of bed by myself but no matter which direction my journey may go.  I am so Thankful for what I can do. :-)

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I was listening to a program on the Christian Radio Station yesterday.  They were talking about how we judge others by how they look or by what others have told us.  We think we are better, prettier, thinner, smarter, more successful than others.  It's really sad how we become desensitized. :-(
It's interesting how we are the first to judge or talk about others when we ourselves have just as many flaws as the person we are talking about or making fun of.  We don't know what that other person has been through or what they may be going through right now. 

Let's do a better job at loving our neighbor as ourselves and loving as God loves us...unconditional...

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Today's Bible Study
Condemned No More

Read | Romans 8:33-39

Every person is born under condemnation. Because of Adam and Eve’s rebellious decisions in the garden of Eden, each person born since then has come into the world with an inherent sin nature. Consequently, everyone needs a Savior, and God has graciously and lovingly provided one in His Son Jesus Christ. Those who reject Him remain under condemnation. Their guilty verdict has not been overturned, so they owe the penalty for violating God’s laws.

Perhaps this seems unfair to you. It is important to remember that God has always facilitated our unfettered communion with Him, even though He alone is perfectly holy and righteous. The reason He created Adam and Eve with free will is that He didn’t want us to be robots—He wanted to enjoy real love and fellowship with His children.

But those first human beings fell because they made poor decisions, as any of us would have. How wonderful that God offered to restore our relationship with Him through Christ’s atoning sacrifice for our sins. He is the Creator, so we truly have no right to question His plan. And yet the Lord has been magnanimous and amazingly loving throughout history. We deserve nothing, but He’s given us everything—including access to Him at any time.

Instead of condemnation, eternal security is ours once we place trust in Jesus as Savior. Praise God! We’ve been liberated from the penalty of our sin and are free to live forever in Christ’s nurturing and instructive grace.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Saturday, July 6th

Another beautiful morning! 

Grandma Gloria was having a good day yesterday :-). Grandma Faye was having trouble with her balance and she had sores on both hands...not sure why the sores??? :-(
Grandma Faye is staying with us until Tuesday...

I've been having the tingling going down my left leg and foot.  I also have the tingling in my left hand
:-(  When I lay down and relax my body will twitch all over...this has been going on for awhile now...
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Today's Bible Study

"Imitate me, just as I also imitate Christ."           1 Corinthians 11:1
 
We imitate the methods and manners of the Christians who serve as our examples. The Christ-likeness, the holiness and righteousness will then be added. God wants us to "...be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity"
(1 Timothy 4:12).
 
Who is looking up to you as an example? A child? A grandchild? A fellow student? Your neighbor or co-worker? The new woman at church? If you are growing in Christ, know this: somebody is watching and learning. Somebody is thinking of you, What would he do? What would she say? How can you be an example? Read 1 Timothy 4:12 again and go out and live it in sight of others.
 
Lord, maybe it's best that I don't know who's watching and learning from me. All I need to know is that I want to imitate You. As I do, others will observe how I do it and be inspired to live the same way. May I be responsible today to this high calling. Amen

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Friday, July 5th

Another beautiful morning.  I hope everyone is having a safe 4th of July weekend. 

We are staying home to get some thing done around the house this weekend.  So much to do :-)

Today Christine, Kaylee and I are running over to Faribault to eat with grandmas. :-) We were out of town last week so we didn't make our weekly trip over to see them.

I was reflecting again on how I may have gotten to this point???  I was told it is usually brought on by cancer or trauma to the body.  They checked all over and found no cancer. So trauma???

I remember a few years back when I was at work running upstairs and slipped. I landed on my kneecaps...oh my gosh did it hurt.  I was out recovering for several weeks after that fall ??? 

Or could it be a complication from the mesh that was put in me during my hernia operation.  I have been told recently it needed to be repaired again. ????

Well Monday I run up to the U of M to find out what I have, how far the progression and how I will be treated. :-)

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Today's Bible Study

Conviction or Condemnation

Read | Romans 8:1-2

Sometimes it’s easy even for believers to become confused, because emotions can be very tricky. For this reason, it is unwise to trust feelings or base our decisions upon them.

But what about those times when you are unsure? You can probably recall periods when you thought you were sensing conviction from the Holy Spirit but wondered whether it might instead be condemnation from the Enemy. There is a difference between emotion and true conviction, which means an awareness of wrongdoing (John 16:7-8). The Holy Spirit prompts conviction of sin as an expression of His love because He wants to keep you on the right path. One sure way to distinguish conviction by the Holy Spirit is that He will always identify something specific (Ps. 51:3-4; Luke 22:60-62). God won’t hesitate to put His finger on whatever is outside of His will.

Conversely, the Enemy will try to inspire feelings of condemnation and guilt by whispering something like, “You call yourself a Christian? You’re a poor excuse for somebody who claims to be one of God’s children.” The Enemy wants you so weighed down that you become ineffective for the Lord. When believers listen to that deceitful voice, they can become incapacitated by the untruths from the Father of Lies.

The Holy Spirit uses conviction positively—to warn against danger or lovingly nudge an erring believer back onto the course the Lord designed for his or her life. Thankfully, this is one of God’s unceasing acts of love.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Thursday, July 4th

Happy 4th everyone...stay safe!

Another beautiful morning! Sunny out again today :-)

This morning I didn't have the lump or knot in my left leg???? So glad but I'm not sure what it was...

Gina, my health care coordinator, called me from the Muscular Dystrophy office yesterday, to let me know she received a letter from the office representing me for Social Security Disability.  I applied for disability many months ago after my Dr suggested I apply. 
I'm really having a hard time.  I've always held two or three jobs at one time.  It's really hard when you're used to working.  I'm not use to sitting around :-(  I keep busy by cleaning, taking care of myself, grandmas from a distance and babysitting Kaylee once and a while.  I have put together flowers pots to take care of, and I'm going through all the closest.  Time to get rid of things.

I applied for a part-time  job earlier this spring but withdrew my application.  I got a letter back from them sharing their disappointment but understood.  It would have been right up my alley. 
Well, yesterday after the kids left I was looking at the paper.  I saw another job right up my alley.  I called and asked about it, put together my resume but I'm struggling with whether to drop it off???? I have my good days but I can really have some very bad days. ???? Will they be willing to put up with these crazy diseases??? Is it fair for me to put them in this situation???  My other coworkers????

While talking to Gina I asked her how many people in MN has DM. She told me there are sixty people in MN and Western WI. with DM.(This is the area the MN DM office covers.) So I am one of sixty people....Wow!  Where do they live?  I would love to talk to anyone with DM by phone, email or in person. (jpmillr@gmail.com)
How long have they had it?  What are their symptoms?  What are the medication they take?  Are the meds helping with the symptoms or causing other symptoms?  Do they work or are they on disability?  Do they have hair lose? Are they in a wheelchair? So many questions :-)

Gina was telling me about a support group in Edina at the MD office.  It is held the second Saturday of the month and they provide food/lunch.  It's from 10:30 to 12:30.  I'm going to start going :-) I'm out of town the second weekend of July but should be around in August.  I would love to meet others struggling with MD.

I continue to strive to stay as healthy as possible.  I eat better, rest and exercise. I really want to get a handle on my weight.  I thought about starting to walk after dark and I will continue to use the glider.  I use it once a day but maybe I should use it a couple times a days???

I know life was never meant to be easy and certainly I have days that are really tough.  I will continue to try to stay positive and at peace with the challenges put before me.We can come together to make things just a little bit easier by being there for each other.  Email me :-)

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Today's Bible Study:

Jesus Came to Set Us Free

Read | Luke 4:14-19

On returning to His hometown, Jesus entered the synagogue and—to the amazement of all who were listening—read His job description from the book of Isaiah. Perhaps some people in that congregation were confused by His statement that He was sent to release captives and set the oppressed free (Luke 4:18). Who were those captives? Was He going to storm the prisons?

Jesus was talking about spiritual bonds, not physical ones. Everyone is born with a sinful nature, and we’re all enslaved to sin until that bondage gets broken by faith in the Savior. But even after salvation, Jesus is continually setting us free from things that entrap us, hindering our relationship with Him. He delivers us . . .

• From error: The Word of God protects us from the misconceptions and lies that Satan and his world system use to bombard us.

• From evil deeds: God’s indwelling Spirit empowers us to resist temptation and live a righteous lifestyle.

• From emotional bondage: The Lord doesn’t want us to be controlled by fear, guilt, jealousy, bitterness, unforgiveness, or inadequacy, which steal the peace and joy Christ promised. When we learn to trust Him in every situation, He’ll set us free from these negative emotions.

Many Christians live in bondage with-out realizing it. They know something is wrong but can’t straighten out their lives. Despite all their efforts to “be better,” they keep failing. No prisoner has the key to unlock the door, but Jesus is standing outside the cell, calling, “Trust Me, and I will set you free!”

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Wednesday, July 3rd

Another beautiful morning.  The sun was shining through the dinning room windows so I had to close them.  Last night I thought it would be nice to look out so I opened up the curtains. :-)

Yesterday Paul, Jesse, Joanna, Nolan and I took a road trip to Wisconsin. We had a good time :-)

The girls and Nolan will be going home after the funeral today  :-(  Such a long trip...I'm not sure if they plan on stopping tonight or driving until they get home?

The last couple of mornings I woke up to a knot or lump feeling in my left leg.  It's in the calf of my leg.  I thought it was a charlie horse yesterday but it didn't hurt like one??? or is it something else???? I go to see my doctor on Monday so I'll bring it up to him???

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Today's Bible Study

The Nagging Sense of Dissatisfaction

Read | Isaiah 55:1-2

Have you ever found yourself standing in front of the refrigerator, trying to find something to satisfy a vague sense of emptiness or discontent? You aren’t looking for anything specific, but you know you want to fill a longing. Whatever you choose will probably not do the trick, because the empty spot is not in your stomach but in your soul.

Whether the substance is food, career, possessions, or relationships, our souls are continually trying to find satisfaction. But nothing in this world will fill the void. Since we were created for relationship with God, He placed deep within us a yearning for Him. Though we may not recognize it as such, everyone knows the feeling of dissatisfaction that at times seeps into our souls. Any time we seek fulfillment with worldly substitutes, disappointment and disillusionment are sure to follow.

There are two possible menus from which we can choose to fill our emptiness. Satan’s menu is long and full of enticing things that seem to promise gratification
and pleasure. These could include riches, relationships, prominence, acceptance, or recognition. Whatever he offers looks like the good life that will bring contenment, but it’s a deception. God’s menu, on the other hand, is quite small. In fact, it lists just one “item”—Jesus. He is the only one who can fill the void.

Have you found the satisfaction you seek, or is there always a vague sense of discontent in your soul? Make Jesus your highest priority, and spend focused, unhurried time with Him, He’ll satisfy you as nothing else can.

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Tuesday, July 2nd

Another beautiful day! :-) Sunny and 62 degrees this morning.

Having differently swallowing again...it doesn't happen everyday but when it does it can be very uncomfortable.  My food gets stuck or goes down really slow.

Tingling in my legs, eye drainage and shooting pains in my right leg this morning.

My back has really been sore the last couple of days. This morning when standing up by the sink putting my uv moisturizer and makeup on. It doesn't happen everyday but when it does it really hurts. :-(

I've been wearing sandals alot even though I know I'm suppose to be keeping my feet covered.  I'd like to feel normal sometimes.  I've had many comments about my feet looking blue.  They do turn blue because of DM.  The disease affects my blood vessels leading to my muscle.  :-(

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Today's Bible Study

"Then Samuel took a stone and set it up between Mizpah and Shen. He named it Ebenezer, saying, 'Thus far has the LORD helped us.'"  
1 Samuel 7:12
 
When the Israelites defeated the Philistines, the prophet Samuel raised a memorial to commemorate the victory. He named it "Ebenezer," which means "stone of help." It was to remind everyone, including Samuel, that God was their help.
 
From the beginning, God has sealed special events with some kind of physical memorial. He gave Noah a rainbow. He instituted the Passover feast as a memorial of Israel's deliverance from Egypt. When He gave the law to Moses, He wrote it on two tablets so His people could see and remember. The tabernacle, the ark itself, and the cloud that hovered over it were visible reminders of God's ever-present help. In the New Testament, the Lord Jesus declared that Mary's gift of perfume, which she poured over Him, should be a memorial. What are the memorials in your life, the tangible reminders God has given you of His ever-present help?
 
My hat, gloves and God's grace in my life during this difficult time is my memorial.  It reminds me (and everyone who sees me smile) that God is my help.
 
Look for the memorials, the stones of remembrances in your life. Whatever they are -- perhaps a ring, a family Bible, a pair of crutches, a pebble you picked up during a journey -- they can be anchors to your soul. When pain becomes severe or sorrow crushing, you can remind yourself of that memorial set in place in a time of greater strength, and you can pray, "Oh, God, keep me faithful to that." Then rest your heart on the faithfulness of the One who has given you help in the past, that One who helped you raise the stone of remembrance in the first place.
 
God, Your understanding of us is so great. You know that we need visible reminders of Your faithfulness. Show me what reminders I can establish in my life that will stand in the face of all the future might bring. Amen

Another great day!

Highs -n- Lows Living with the Disease

Monday, July 1st

Another beautiful morning!  Sunny and highs are supposed to hit 80's again today.

Jesse, Joanna and Nolan arrived last night at around 9:30pm.
It is good to see them.  It's too bad it's under these circumstances.  We usually see the kids and grandkids four to five times a year. :-( They come up twice a year and we go down two to three times a year.  Wish we were alittle closer.
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A week from today I get my results from the U of M.  I am looking forward to finally getting my diagnosis or having it confirmed.  Once it's confirmed...I can be treated. :-)
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I am sore this morning and my head has been itching a lot again.  :-( I have discharge coming from my eyes this morning.  The eye Dr said it was from the prednisone.  What I don't understand is I don't have it every morning and I get it in the morning before I take the medication.?????

One of the medication I've been given to help my symptoms is Methotrexate. The symptoms of the medication are the same as the symptoms of the disease ???

It is used to treat psoriasis, some cancers, rheumatoid arthritis, other forms of inflammatory arthritis, lupus, inflammatory myositis, vasculitis and some forms of childhood arthritis.

Some symptoms are hair loss and increased sensitivity to sunlight.  These are the symptoms I had before starting to take the medication.  Not sure if it's working or not?

I continue to have problems with my memory.  I have times when my mind goes blank...so frustrating :-(

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Today's Bible Study

by Dr. Charles Stanley

Freedom is one of the most-prized human ideals, and as Americans, we are blessed to live in a nation where we can serve God with unreserved obedience. Throughout our great history, people have fought and given their lives to be liberated from tyranny. We know that the rights and privileges we enjoy today have come at an awesome price.

So as we consider the price our Founding Fathers paid to sign the Declaration of Independence and provide us with national autonomy so many years later, I challenge you to consider both the freedom from oppression we enjoy in the United States, and the liberty from sin we have through Jesus Christ our Savior.

These are important subjects to consider because as our nation faces one crisis after another, we must be wise and watchful. The decisions being made and the direction the country will take in the months and years ahead are sure to impact many generations to come. If we continue to make the mistake of surrendering control of our lives and country to those who act contrary to God’s Word, we will find ourselves bound by the same chains our forefathers cast off so long ago.

That is why it is critically important for all Americans to seek and obey God, because it’s only through Him that we have true liberty to live life at its best.

Therefore, the first thing we need to do is make the choice to put the Lord first in everything we do. We must reject the destructive ways of the world and choose to live in submission to our heavenly Father (John 8:34–36).

Second, we must trust God to change the course and character of our nation. We are to be salt and light in our communities, stepping out in obedience with the faith that He will hear from heaven and heal our land (2 Chron. 7:14).

Third, we are to fight this battle for America’s future on our knees. It is our duty as Christians to pray for our leaders in the hope that they will turn their hearts to do the will of God. Only He can transform them into men and women who will truly honor Him (1 Tim. 2:1–4).

We may not know who the next president will be or who will hold the seats of power throughout the land in the years to come, but we do know the King of kings and the Lord of lords. So let us embrace the freedom He’s given us and thank Him for liberating us to live for His name’s sake. May He bless you as you continue to serve Him with love and faithfulness, and may God continue to bless America.

 Another great day!